I think a common misconception about my previous posts is that I have a desire to fit in here and be accepted. I do not want to fit in here. I do not (and am already not) accepted here. I do not was to become immune to the sin around me here. I never want to be immune to sin, period. Nor do I want to tolerate it in any form. I do not want to laugh and coarse jokes or smile at things that should not be said. I do not want to be part of that in any way, because if I am that in a sense becomes me. 'You are what you eat' and 'I am a product of my environment' do not become me. The LORD knows it would be easy to conform to this. He knows it would make life easier for me if I could just blend in and not be noticed. But those are not the plans He has for me.... or for anyone. He also doesn't want us to be a light to light. We, as Christians, are called to be lights in and to the darkness. A lot of responses I'm getting are telling me to just hang in there, blend in, readjust to the secular world... But those are not what I want to do. I do not want to slide by or be comfortable. I want people to notice me because I'm different. Because I respond to life different, talk differently and live differently. Because I don't tolerate the secular world or what it has to offer and I won't tolerate sin thrown around so lightly. Yes, sin happens. No I am not perfect, but I do strive to be like Jesus and I do desire to follow him completely. At the moment I'm just clinging to what He's promised me, to what I know He is calling me to in the future. I know that what goes on here, that this college is just another step toward this God-given promise.... This is just a step, its not a change of life or a new way of living. This whole year will be a trial and God will carry me through it as He always does.