I can't sleep. I'll be honest, I haven't tried. Yes, I am sad. There is a lot on my mind. It's in moments very much like this that I really miss Ryan. In fact, I really miss a lot of people. I even miss some of the people I see every day. Someone loved me enough tonight to sit up with me until 1:20 in the morning and talk to me. It was good, we prayed and cried. Common Fire really pulled together tonight with prayer and worship. There are some times when I know that I will really miss living in community. Granted, we all suck at having patience, cleanliness and loving kindness all the time we really have pulled together in the end. I love you.