How do I know where to invest myself or my time? How do I know what's lasting and what's not lasting? Now that I'm dating I wonder that a lot. Do I invest in him or them? I want to invest in the community still. I'm still a part of it. I still love it. But at the same time, I want to invest in this one person. Is there a balance? I feel like with most couples there is no balance its either one or the other. How long will this last? If its only a short time, of course I want to invest in the lasting things. CommonFire is only another a month and a half long. Not long at all. How well do I know these people? Every time they start to know me, I run away. He runs away too. Why is it that just when people get to know us, befriend us... love us, we push them away and run from them? I want to keep reaching out. Holding out my hand, offering him my friendship, my love...trying to bring him back but the eyes of a cornered puppy are the only response: "Hopeless... lost... run away!" No no... There is hope, I'm with you here... stay... stay, don't run away from me, please. Please. But he runs. How can I get him to stay? How can I get him to trust me? How can I tell him that I still love him... that I always will?